By Maureen Kasdorf
“Mommy! Mommy! I have to go potty!”
“I need milk! Mommy! Come here!”
“Mommy, where is my _____?”
Before my eyes are open I’m already in Urgent Response Mode. There isn’t a second to spare. If I ignore the cries for five minutes someone will have pooped on the floor, spilled milk across the kitchen table, run outside naked, or climbed somewhere dangerous.
Lord! Where can I go? Why can’t I just have some time alone with you?
And in His tenderness he is there.
As a mother with young children, I have found my desire to spend hours lingering in the Lord’s presence impossible to make reality. This impossibility leads to resentment and bitterness and depression. If I continue the all-or-nothing thinking, I believe I will only get that luxury when the kids are grown.
I have felt discouraged by wanting to be more, do more, spend more time with God. My current situation has limited my control over my time.
And then I read Psalm 84, specifically verse 4.
Even the sparrow has found a home and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young—a place near your altar, my King and my God.
That the little common birds have a place to dwell near God, and the crazy, flighty swallow a nest where she can have her young, near His altar, reassures me that if He has made a place for them, then there is a place for me there too!
And I don’t need to strive more. I need only to trust that like He says in Isaiah 40:11, “He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.” What a sweet promise.
In God’s incredible understanding of us, he has unique expectations for us given our situations. I love that about Him.
Brother Lawrence, in Practicing His Presence, draws us to see that God’s presence is available anywhere, not only in the temple courts, but wherever we are. He talks of “the God of the pots and pans”. That even as a lowly dish-washing monk, he could spend all day with God. I have been so encouraged by his attitude, and over the past year or two knowing these truths has changed my own heart.
What about you? Are you feeling limited by your current situation? Listen to these words and take great peace and joy in the fact that He knows and that you are near him, wherever you are.